Te Peslєdҩ Veprò Bєx Otvє̀

J mє̀ rotaþ dóge nad ti vopròs de dJ bye. Є mє̀ J peluciþ pecci si otvє̀s na ti.
Te peslєdҩ vazҩ î єþ o te licҩa ziz de J vt svє̀ doriҩtasa є te vє̀s kaq vystrávaþ, kada є se qo.

Єrvҩs, prame sjr tєþ te storna de ziz ka lєþê aktivҩa. Peco? Pete, J vystraivae sjr bolє́ vázҩy storny (finâs, karjra, hєþj, pe - gєe), destizєnj dt sєl gєe dєt staþ slózҩє́ є lisit vezmóny prє́mussєsva si Jm î.
Vtorҩs, J vizê i rєáҩy єrspєktivy destignuþ te sєl vt mєśe sjr Jm ve. Jm sklôҩ ozidaþê Jdu nádiþ î îmyslҩik.
Triҩs, J sneu mє̀ pestaviþ te veprò o dJl oriҩtasa.

J mє̀ obratiþsa kt govs de sevєs. Ur bal ur mє̀ J peluciþ si ti otvє̀s. Sє̀nüxc ta yl te peslєdҩ î.
J na te dє́ odobrae iznotri te vє̀ sesrєdotociþsa na ti sєli ky suþ bolє́ vázҩy na tєtap є co dєt pemoc̀ póze te lúcsҩ vє̀. Zo, J trace námalє́sҩ ur nax dJ licҩa ziz sjr. Tóka si te same dєt prózódiþ bєx dopovnitє́ҩy osilj є veprєki ozidanj.
J prinimae te dє́svitє́nos kaq ôa lєþ, є trєbuelê el êvezmóne. No si te dє́svitє́nos okazєtsa lúcse, J prime te sel udovósvj.
Te názaputâє́se yle si Jm þôs, ilj êmnóge bi, ilj te se lєþ próste al igra de dJ mozg. Є pe te, kaq du J dє́þ?.. tOtvє̀ taze dal dJ govs de sevєs. Þôs. Sil ostáҩy vє̀s suþ próste rasset, surogat. No J pelєrzҩe stavlelê il ogrâisҩj se qo stróþ sєmj pî ur. Taq ili îês, sєmj dєt stróþsa na cє́snos st same nasale. Muz ilj zêa dєt znaþ Jm þôs. Zo daze si rasset dєt vázҩє́ nal î єriod ce nastejssa sєmj se lobimҩ clovєk J duê obmâovaþ o te sama sut de vєssi.
Jm þôs, є Jm za humanism, є prava de clovєk, є za mir vt se mir, є za ravҩepravj, є zal єvolusa de nálucsi cєrty de clovєk daze si ti suþ neui єl êokrєpesi єl êsformirovây ba natur.

P.S. Vt myslҩ dialog se Natalj skazal J taq: brak se zêa dєtê otlicaþsa ot te vє̀ druzim my, kada êtolєrâtҩos ke te vázҩy caśi de demy zizs vezdvigát êprexedima stҩa na te vє̀ ke nastojssa druzeba - zo, tєþ êploe є dát i prє́mussєsva î-î, no vt bolє́ loź cel iskrҩҩos.

Te Basis De dJ Ziz

Ocҩ dógҩ ur mє̀ J odumyvaþ te basis de dJ ziz.
Ti suþ vє́sma vazҩy momҩs. J xєsê osibiþsa є petratiþ єsse cas de dJ lur na te J du sezalєþ o pe.
Ba sjr mє̀ J penaþ a nábósa problєma: ve si rєsєnj J lєm vєdom bal on. J rasuzdae o loby vєssi se te pozisa de lî drugҩ, є bolé dt - J stanovles̀ raxocarovâ si te petҩsialҩ î strєmitsalê raxdeliþ te cánj de J.

Zo, taka sxєma sel a storôa osloznát є plâirovanj de ziz. Se druga, garantirútê ta dєt î qo dєt dє́þ v sótvє́svj st la. Qєsli, єþ î pedseznatєlҩ momҩ єrloziþ totvє́svєnos na te lî îҩ. Vitoge, J dvigás xaotisne, êpeslєdovatє́ne, se gromadny petєri del ur є de sily.

J mє̀ prídiþ ke vyvod, J den oprєdєliþsa st basis kҩ y vklocal tóke J. Si ostány (oc, dulô neua sєmj, druzi, lovєmҩ î) dut prileziþsa. Ilj lê. No te garantirovâa nadєza tóke nax J.

Dógҩ ur mєgê J penaþ dє dJ nastojssҩ dom єþ. J cue sa êploe ve Smolensk. No te dalé te bolé kaq vel ê dJ dom. Si J єsse ponal de lєþ dJ gєograficєske mєste, kaq mєge J oriєntirovaþsa na lî muz є sєmj vt dom.

Zo te Basis ba sjr den staþ te nastojssҩ ósk de dJ mєste. Dє xєse J ostaþsa є preziþ te nєxsta cas de dJ ziz.

The Goal

So far, I am 30 years old, and again I am going to choose the primary goal of my life. This is a very important question to me, unfortunately, not clear after all changes in my life that had happened recently.
Actually, this is the question I asked myself when I had decided to quit from WebCanape, Smolensk, Russia, and leave for Ingate in Tula. On May, my mother passed away, and I made a decision to come back and spend the summer with my dad, to help him, to help with the parents' house, and the small local business. It was very important to me.
Now I see that my dad is okay, and his life is getting better and better. Also, a new mistress of the house is going to appear. So, I have nothing to worry about with the issue of Przhevalskoye. Just finishing the juridical things with the heritage. And I guess, after that, there will be little in what I will be involved there.
On this occasion the more important question becomes 'where to go further'.
The issue of love, and family, and children is getting more, and more, and more important to me. Too much regrettable, that it is hardly achievable altogether in my case, in my country. This is the real dominant idea in my life since I came out. Almost all I did was always aimed for the goal. With regret, I didn't manage to become succesful in this point even in the case of de facto partnership. Last month I had a passionate romance with an Indian guy that has finished as unexpectedly quick, as it started. Same the previous romance that lasted for about half a year. Misfortune in private life all the time - not serious relationships, unfaithfulnesses, immature guys, not ready for real manly deeds and responsibility + evident troubles if we go further and think of adopting some miserable child from orphan home. This all dictates I would change the primary aim of my life, and would first fulfill my own life thoroughly.
What items it would be?

1. Career.
2. Health + physical education.
3. Development in music, singing and perfomance.

All these three are right what I am working with, now. But mostly, it is chaotic and insufficient.
I have a deadline. Before Feb 2017 I should finish my juridical stuff with heritage, teaching at the courses on Internet Marketing, and to get operated on my nostrils that should give a better quality of my voice. After that I will become absolutely free to go on with my career.
But now I got a job offer from WebCanape (where I had worked) with not bad conditions. And it forced me to ponder over the things earlier than the deadline. The question of career includes several items:

• Region: Smolensk, Moscow, abroad, my place.
• Type: own business, organisation.
• Subject: SEO/Analytics, Web-programming.
• Purpose: money, more free time, PR, prospects.
• Direction: to go on, to start something new.

So you see, I am at the door of a complicated choice.
I made a pro and contra list what to choose. But it didn't give me the answer yet. The number of items would not give the answer. The weigh of some of them may be greater.
I need to make a decision about the WebCanape offer before Monday. I don't want to make a mistake, so I would not feel sorry about it as time goes on. Already now I need to understand, where to go further.

Music Returning to My Life

2 days ago a friend of mine Slava came to my place, and brought the digital piano from Smolensk, Russia. I've been living for 7.5 months without it, and missed it a lot. But it happened so that I needed to solve other problems, that were more important, so I had to sacrifice the music for some time.
Gradually, I started feeling the lack of music in my life more and more. And when Slava told me that he would like to visit me, and give some present, I asked him if he could do it for me. Slava, thank you so much!

Урааааа!!! После семи-то месяцев без инструмента! Славка, спасибо!!! ✌ Фото опубликовано Denis Bisteinoff (@bisteinoff) Апр 22 2016 в 1:45 PDT

#Sunny Sunday morning - вспоминаем, как выглядят клавиши 😎 Видео опубликовано Denis Bisteinoff (@bisteinoff) Апр 24 2016 в 4:50 PDT

My Apartment in Tula

A week ago I made a video for my parents and friends to show where I live now. I moved to Tula, Russia last September, and now I live far from my parents and friends. So not so many of them had visited me during these 6 or 7 months.
And finally, I thought it would be great to watch it after some time when my live changes again, and I move to some other apartment or city.
This is it, enjoy the video!

Memoirs. Post 1. My Background, Where It All Comes From

Let us start our journey across my lifetime. But where is the head of it?

I think I should start with the relatives. To tell where they all came from. What is the background.

My childhood was in the house of my mother and her parents. The influence of my mother's branch of the family tree had always been stronger, than my father's. That's why I start with this part.

Returning To The Blog After A Long While

Hello, everyone again!

I haven't been writing to the blog for long. There was not necessity, or else there were reasons why I didn't want to share all sides of my life. The time to blog has returned. And I again feel the need to go on telling of my life.

Some time ago, I read my old diary, that I used to keep when I was a student. That was almost shock for me. I completely forgot what sort of a guy I was just six, seven or eight years ago. Then it stimulated me to stop regreting about what hadn't happened in those years. (Gosh! It just couldn't happen!)

At the same time, I realized, that I keep on forgetting about my life, about what I had to overcome to reach the goals, to have the happy life, a good partner, a great job, a great plenty of plans and ambitions. I guess I might be too young to start writing memoirs. But when it will be time, sure, the blog becomes good help for me.

Here, I won't conceal anything. But some ideas and stories which are too personal will be written in tԐ́fískԑ̂ . When time comes, these parts will be translated into English.
Well, I wish you all joy! And I leave you for not long to start writing here my first story about my past.