Te Peslєdҩ Veprò Bєx Otvє̀

J mє̀ rotaþ dóge nad ti vopròs de dJ bye. Є mє̀ J peluciþ pecci si otvє̀s na ti.
Te peslєdҩ vazҩ î єþ o te licҩa ziz de J vt svє̀ doriҩtasa є te vє̀s kaq vystrávaþ, kada є se qo.

Єrvҩs, prame sjr tєþ te storna de ziz ka lєþê aktivҩa. Peco? Pete, J vystraivae sjr bolє́ vázҩy storny (finâs, karjra, hєþj, pe - gєe), destizєnj dt sєl gєe dєt staþ slózҩє́ є lisit vezmóny prє́mussєsva si Jm î.
Vtorҩs, J vizê i rєáҩy єrspєktivy destignuþ te sєl vt mєśe sjr Jm ve. Jm sklôҩ ozidaþê Jdu nádiþ î îmyslҩik.
Triҩs, J sneu mє̀ pestaviþ te veprò o dJl oriҩtasa.

J mє̀ obratiþsa kt govs de sevєs. Ur bal ur mє̀ J peluciþ si ti otvє̀s. Sє̀nüxc ta yl te peslєdҩ î.
J na te dє́ odobrae iznotri te vє̀ sesrєdotociþsa na ti sєli ky suþ bolє́ vázҩy na tєtap є co dєt pemoc̀ póze te lúcsҩ vє̀. Zo, J trace námalє́sҩ ur nax dJ licҩa ziz sjr. Tóka si te same dєt prózódiþ bєx dopovnitє́ҩy osilj є veprєki ozidanj.
J prinimae te dє́svitє́nos kaq ôa lєþ, є trєbuelê el êvezmóne. No si te dє́svitє́nos okazєtsa lúcse, J prime te sel udovósvj.
Te názaputâє́se yle si Jm þôs, ilj êmnóge bi, ilj te se lєþ próste al igra de dJ mozg. Є pe te, kaq du J dє́þ?.. tOtvє̀ taze dal dJ govs de sevєs. Þôs. Sil ostáҩy vє̀s suþ próste rasset, surogat. No J pelєrzҩe stavlelê il ogrâisҩj se qo stróþ sєmj pî ur. Taq ili îês, sєmj dєt stróþsa na cє́snos st same nasale. Muz ilj zêa dєt znaþ Jm þôs. Zo daze si rasset dєt vázҩє́ nal î єriod ce nastejssa sєmj se lobimҩ clovєk J duê obmâovaþ o te sama sut de vєssi.
Jm þôs, є Jm za humanism, є prava de clovєk, є za mir vt se mir, є za ravҩepravj, є zal єvolusa de nálucsi cєrty de clovєk daze si ti suþ neui єl êokrєpesi єl êsformirovây ba natur.

P.S. Vt myslҩ dialog se Natalj skazal J taq: brak se zêa dєtê otlicaþsa ot te vє̀ druzim my, kada êtolєrâtҩos ke te vázҩy caśi de demy zizs vezdvigát êprexedima stҩa na te vє̀ ke nastojssa druzeba - zo, tєþ êploe є dát i prє́mussєsva î-î, no vt bolє́ loź cel iskrҩҩos.

Te Basis De dJ Ziz

Ocҩ dógҩ ur mє̀ J odumyvaþ te basis de dJ ziz.
Ti suþ vє́sma vazҩy momҩs. J xєsê osibiþsa є petratiþ єsse cas de dJ lur na te J du sezalєþ o pe.
Ba sjr mє̀ J penaþ a nábósa problєma: ve si rєsєnj J lєm vєdom bal on. J rasuzdae o loby vєssi se te pozisa de lî drugҩ, є bolé dt - J stanovles̀ raxocarovâ si te petҩsialҩ î strєmitsalê raxdeliþ te cánj de J.

Zo, taka sxєma sel a storôa osloznát є plâirovanj de ziz. Se druga, garantirútê ta dєt î qo dєt dє́þ v sótvє́svj st la. Qєsli, єþ î pedseznatєlҩ momҩ єrloziþ totvє́svєnos na te lî îҩ. Vitoge, J dvigás xaotisne, êpeslєdovatє́ne, se gromadny petєri del ur є de sily.

J mє̀ prídiþ ke vyvod, J den oprєdєliþsa st basis kҩ y vklocal tóke J. Si ostány (oc, dulô neua sєmj, druzi, lovєmҩ î) dut prileziþsa. Ilj lê. No te garantirovâa nadєza tóke nax J.

Dógҩ ur mєgê J penaþ dє dJ nastojssҩ dom єþ. J cue sa êploe ve Smolensk. No te dalé te bolé kaq vel ê dJ dom. Si J єsse ponal de lєþ dJ gєograficєske mєste, kaq mєge J oriєntirovaþsa na lî muz є sєmj vt dom.

Zo te Basis ba sjr den staþ te nastojssҩ ósk de dJ mєste. Dє xєse J ostaþsa є preziþ te nєxsta cas de dJ ziz.

The Goal

So far, I am 30 years old, and again I am going to choose the primary goal of my life. This is a very important question to me, unfortunately, not clear after all changes in my life that had happened recently.
Actually, this is the question I asked myself when I had decided to quit from WebCanape, Smolensk, Russia, and leave for Ingate in Tula. On May, my mother passed away, and I made a decision to come back and spend the summer with my dad, to help him, to help with the parents' house, and the small local business. It was very important to me.
Now I see that my dad is okay, and his life is getting better and better. Also, a new mistress of the house is going to appear. So, I have nothing to worry about with the issue of Przhevalskoye. Just finishing the juridical things with the heritage. And I guess, after that, there will be little in what I will be involved there.
On this occasion the more important question becomes 'where to go further'.
The issue of love, and family, and children is getting more, and more, and more important to me. Too much regrettable, that it is hardly achievable altogether in my case, in my country. This is the real dominant idea in my life since I came out. Almost all I did was always aimed for the goal. With regret, I didn't manage to become succesful in this point even in the case of de facto partnership. Last month I had a passionate romance with an Indian guy that has finished as unexpectedly quick, as it started. Same the previous romance that lasted for about half a year. Misfortune in private life all the time - not serious relationships, unfaithfulnesses, immature guys, not ready for real manly deeds and responsibility + evident troubles if we go further and think of adopting some miserable child from orphan home. This all dictates I would change the primary aim of my life, and would first fulfill my own life thoroughly.
What items it would be?

1. Career.
2. Health + physical education.
3. Development in music, singing and perfomance.

All these three are right what I am working with, now. But mostly, it is chaotic and insufficient.
I have a deadline. Before Feb 2017 I should finish my juridical stuff with heritage, teaching at the courses on Internet Marketing, and to get operated on my nostrils that should give a better quality of my voice. After that I will become absolutely free to go on with my career.
But now I got a job offer from WebCanape (where I had worked) with not bad conditions. And it forced me to ponder over the things earlier than the deadline. The question of career includes several items:

• Region: Smolensk, Moscow, abroad, my place.
• Type: own business, organisation.
• Subject: SEO/Analytics, Web-programming.
• Purpose: money, more free time, PR, prospects.
• Direction: to go on, to start something new.

So you see, I am at the door of a complicated choice.
I made a pro and contra list what to choose. But it didn't give me the answer yet. The number of items would not give the answer. The weigh of some of them may be greater.
I need to make a decision about the WebCanape offer before Monday. I don't want to make a mistake, so I would not feel sorry about it as time goes on. Already now I need to understand, where to go further.

Music Returning to My Life

2 days ago a friend of mine Slava came to my place, and brought the digital piano from Smolensk, Russia. I've been living for 7.5 months without it, and missed it a lot. But it happened so that I needed to solve other problems, that were more important, so I had to sacrifice the music for some time.
Gradually, I started feeling the lack of music in my life more and more. And when Slava told me that he would like to visit me, and give some present, I asked him if he could do it for me. Slava, thank you so much!

Урааааа!!! После семи-то месяцев без инструмента! Славка, спасибо!!! ✌ Фото опубликовано Denis Bisteinoff (@bisteinoff) Апр 22 2016 в 1:45 PDT

#Sunny Sunday morning - вспоминаем, как выглядят клавиши 😎 Видео опубликовано Denis Bisteinoff (@bisteinoff) Апр 24 2016 в 4:50 PDT

My Apartment in Tula

A week ago I made a video for my parents and friends to show where I live now. I moved to Tula, Russia last September, and now I live far from my parents and friends. So not so many of them had visited me during these 6 or 7 months.
And finally, I thought it would be great to watch it after some time when my live changes again, and I move to some other apartment or city.
This is it, enjoy the video!

Memoirs. Post 1. My Background, Where It All Comes From

Let us start our journey across my lifetime. But where is the head of it?

I think I should start with the relatives. To tell where they all came from. What is the background.

My childhood was in the house of my mother and her parents. The influence of my mother's branch of the family tree had always been stronger, than my father's. That's why I start with this part.

Returning To The Blog After A Long While

Hello, everyone again!

I haven't been writing to the blog for long. There was not necessity, or else there were reasons why I didn't want to share all sides of my life. The time to blog has returned. And I again feel the need to go on telling of my life.

Some time ago, I read my old diary, that I used to keep when I was a student. That was almost shock for me. I completely forgot what sort of a guy I was just six, seven or eight years ago. Then it stimulated me to stop regreting about what hadn't happened in those years. (Gosh! It just couldn't happen!)

At the same time, I realized, that I keep on forgetting about my life, about what I had to overcome to reach the goals, to have the happy life, a good partner, a great job, a great plenty of plans and ambitions. I guess I might be too young to start writing memoirs. But when it will be time, sure, the blog becomes good help for me.

Here, I won't conceal anything. But some ideas and stories which are too personal will be written in tԐ́fískԑ̂ . When time comes, these parts will be translated into English.
Well, I wish you all joy! And I leave you for not long to start writing here my first story about my past.

How I Got Aquainted With a Professional Wedding Photographer in Sydney

I live in Russia. I never wanted to find a wedding photographer anywhere but in Russia. Actually, never needed it at all. Not married, and not gonna get married. But it didn't prevent me from getting acquainted with a professional photographer from Sydney, Australia. As far as I can guess, Dima Komarov is also from Russia, but then he already lived in Australia for some time. It happened so, that we had common friends, and once I had a chance to see his photos. Really good works! Espesially those with sepia effect. I like the kind.
Not sure if anyone from Australia reads this message. But I recommend this photographer. Sure, he's one of the best photographers in Australia.

Read more about him: http://www.happywedding.com.au/about/

Well, hope that once you have this happy wedding day (if you haven't had yet), and this guy will make his best you'd remember it for ever!

Wish you a Happy Wedding Day!

P.S. His website is http://www.happywedding.com.au/
There's not so many works published there. But enough to understand that he has real passion with his work!

It's Good When Nobody Cares How Long You Work!

You know I worked as a teacher at a public school, then at a private school, then at university, after that at the Department of Education, and now finally changed everything and plunged into PPC, SEO, SMM and other IT things of the sort. Now I work at web-canape.
Almost everywhere they did care how long I was at work. Do you know who were these 'they'? Yes, usual co-workers! Noone should have been late at work because it might become his advantage. Even if I wanted to just stay late at work and to do my own things - I had no chance to do it without condemning eyes. Go home no matter what you want - be a part of the crowd!
I love the atmosphere of freedom at my contemporary work so much! I can stay at work as long as I want, and nobody would ever think of the reason why I stay longer. We are all young there, and I think this is right the best part of the new post-soviet generation that has much healthier points of view! Sometimes, I even have a feeling that I work not in Russia but in some West-European or American company!
Such work brings joy every day!

It's like at a Google Office!

I Fell In Love With Korolyovka, Smolensk!

I had never walked here before. Finally, I did it! This such a beautiful place!

I've taken some photos on my mobile. Enjoy them! (To see more photos click Read more at the bottom).

Again After a While, or Be Who You Are - That's Real Joy!

I haven't written for long.

I didn't do it because I was lazy, and I had a really difficult time. Now too many things have changed, and I think I can see and understand much more than I used to.

Actually, I don't believe anymore that it is possible to live all your life so, every day had at least small joy. I think, you should have long periods of depression, so nothing could make you smile these days. Otherwise all your life will seem to be similar. You won't feel joy as much as you could if you had troubles and were depressed.

Actually, I started this blog hoping I can change everything in my life just writing about joy and trying to find good things every day of my life. Well, it didn't help much. Do you know what really helped? I changed almost everything in my life! I changed the place of living, the people I live with, friends, comerades, job, and what I do for a living. In addition I fell in love, and faced a lot of difficulties connected with it. I bought my own room, and now going to move there. This all didn't happen at once. I left my parents in the summer 2010. Now it's almost summer 2013. During this time I have changed the place of living for three times, and job for four or five times. I broke a lot of stereotypes in my mind, and allowed me to stop living 'comme il faut' but to live that kind of life I want and enjoy myself - being who I am.

This is real joy to enjoy who you are no matter what other people think. Because if you try to be what other people want, you live not your life, and it actually becomes all for nothing then.
I was religious because it seemed to me to be good for a guy. But I didn't want to go to church.
I was trying to be good for other people. But I wanted to do some things the society of the village would not support.I was ready to be a teacher because my parents wanted. But I did want to make sites, optimize them for search engines, and advertize them.

I didn't take one thing into account - I LIVE THE LIFE FOR MYSELF!!!

Jul 21, 2010 - The Best Thing is When Things Around and You Chime Well Together

I hear very often when people complain about 'bad' weather, or 'unworthy' people around, or the 'difficult' times they live in. I wonder if it is a trait of character to complain of everything? Or it is just a sort of excuse for that they don't live a happy life? Or at least a happier life. Do you really think that it is a difficult thing to live in a harmony with the world? Just try to do it. And try to do things which are natural. This is the point how you can chime in with the nature, with everything around.

LOOK AT YOURSELF AFTER WATCHING THIS

Feb 19, 2010 - Crossroads of Different Cultures

Some of these days I got acquainted with some guys from Serbia, Bulgaria, Ukrain, and Saudi Arabia. I've never thought that it is sooooooooooooooooo interesting to learn about other cultures.

And I could never estimate Byzantine singing and music or, for example, this bagpipes band:

The World of Lie

Beginning the blog I declared that it was possible to feel joy everyday. It was really so. Sure, everyone feels joy every day. But sometimes there's so little joy in the day... I started feeling that sometimes I lie posting in the blog. Why? I didn't say any lie! But there were times when I wrote something not important when I wasn't happy at all.

Despite the fact I would continue writing about the joys if I didn't feel another thing. All the idea is a way to lie to myself. Things are not always so good. Writing about joy helps to forget about sad things, not good things, awful things. And then it doesn't cure but accumulates problems.

I'm not going to finish the blog, now. But I'm not going to write any sweet stuff here anymore.

Feb 13-16, 2010 - The Joy of Creation

These days I decided to forget about the blog and devote the time for creative work. I had been composing a piece of music. Truely speaking, it was written almost 5 years ago. But now I felt that I'd like to make an arrangement for it. I added violin and cello. But I feel that the work is not over yet. I don't think that there'll be big changings, but I would add bells somewhere, for instence.

The kind of work also denotes a new part of my life. I've composed nothing at all since 2007. Maybe soon I start writing music or songs again.

Feb 12, 2010 - Never give up hope!

It is all said in itself:

Feb 11, 2010 - To See the Progress of Your Students

I think seeing the progress of the students is the most pleasant thing for any teacher. It is much more important to see it if you tutor them. And when you realize that the time was not wasted you feel joy.

Feb 10, 2010 - Take Your Breath

There are moments in my life when I can't have a joy. And I realize that I shouldn't do anything to have it then. This is the time to take my breath. I know that such moments are very important for me to continue fighting for happiness again. I just have a rest. It is very good to listen to melodious music then. Like this. Try to dissolve in the music. What do you feel? What do you feel then? Try not to force your mind. Just remember afterwards what feeling happened after you had a rest.

Feb 9, 2010 - Learn When You Teach

Today, I realized how important to learn something when you teach. I had been trying to play a... not so difficult thing from The Phantom of the Opera and couldn't. And though music and foreign language don't seem to be alike I felt how difficult it is for my students to learn new words, and new grammar. Maybe you can understand your students only then when you are in fight for new skills yourself...