Dec 31, 2009 - Aware

Today, I've become aware what I really want in the long term.

Dec 29-30, 2009 - Decorating the Home

Yesterday, I didn't post anything here, but it doesn't mean, that there was no joy the previous day ;)

Actually, the joy continues even today! These days, my family and I are decorating the Christmas trees (there are 3 of them!) and the rooms. You know New Year's Eve is already tomorrow!

But though it is coming only in a day, the feeling of the X-maz holidays has already been existing so long! At least for a week! And I'm sure it'll last for a long time! You know, in Russia Christmas is celebrated on Jan 7 that's Dec 25 according to Orthodox church (or Julian) calendar. By the way, it lets the Russian to celebrate New Year's Eve twice: in the nights of Dec 31/Jan 1 and Jan 13/Jan 14 :)

There are some photos of the decorating of our home below:

1. In the midst of decorating our 2 small christmas trees:

2. One of them is set in the living room beside the TV-set:

3. The other is in the kitchen:

4. Our decorated living room:

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Dec 28, 2009 - A Dream

In the morning, about 7:10, I had a dream where I saw my late grandmother.

I saw that I had finished a letter to I don't know who, where I wrote that I decided to go away from home. The computer, the corner of a room should be mine. But I'd never seen them before. Stairs to a balcony... A lot of books - at the same time I was sure I was in a library. 

I hadn't sent the letter and turned, and saw my granny sitting on a bed that should be mine as well. She was gazing at me, and I sensed an unspeakable love in her look. I started to stroke her left leg that was curved as an old tree in sores. It seemed that she had three knees one above another. But she was so beautiful, and even a bit thinner than in her old age. Then she put her left foot onto my right knee. And I felt it a bit cold. Like my legs when they become cold in frosty weather.

She was looking at me, and I started feeling that she didn't want me to go away. She didn't say a word, but I did feel that.

That letter wasn't sent, and I awoke. I don't know what kind of dream that was. I didn't cross myself while seeing my grandma. But I felt from her the most silent but the strongest flow of love I'd never felt from anyone... So, I thank God that I could feel it!

Dec 27, 2009 - Walking

Sure, walking can change the world. They say, centuries ago the world was better... I think, it was that because people walked much more then.

Walking is one of the best ways to overcome bad mood. But my advise is to return after walk to a different place. I mean, not there where the source of your bad mood is or even was, but to somewhere else.

It's great if there's a place where you can always stay for a night (alone or with someone). The worst thing here is if the sourse is at your own home, and you don't have such a place or you've gotta return home because of some other reason.

So, the moral of this is that you have to take care of such kind of place, where you could always stay alone after any conflict, and that you should always try to walk when you've got low spirits.

P.S. The photo evokes the feeling of changing the life to the better as you walk from turn to turn.

(Lake Sapsho in the summer 2009)

Dec 26, 2009 - Singing Makes Me Feel Good!

Today, my parents are left for Demidov and Smolensk. So, I can do loud things as well :)

(Usually, I don't listen to music or sing loudly when my mother is in, because she has headaches).

I assure you, singing is the best way to cheer you up ;)

(Espesially, if you sing merry or elating songs)

Dec 25, 2009 - Volleyball Training

Today, I again got my training in volleyball :)

There were more people there, today. And they were more professional than the previous time!

It was much more interesting to play with them!

And one more thing... I want to congratulate all the people who celebrate Christmas, today! I wish you joy every day in the coming year!

Dec 24, 2009 - Helping Hand

It is such a pleasure to help other people!

I feel so great that I could do a favour a woman that had helped me some time before.

She asked me to buy a book for her son that would help him to study English. Yesterday, I was in Smolensk and was able to do it. Today, I gave it to her.