Again After a While, or Be Who You Are - That's Real Joy!

I haven't written for long.

I didn't do it because I was lazy, and I had a really difficult time. Now too many things have changed, and I think I can see and understand much more than I used to.

Actually, I don't believe anymore that it is possible to live all your life so, every day had at least small joy. I think, you should have long periods of depression, so nothing could make you smile these days. Otherwise all your life will seem to be similar. You won't feel joy as much as you could if you had troubles and were depressed.

Actually, I started this blog hoping I can change everything in my life just writing about joy and trying to find good things every day of my life. Well, it didn't help much. Do you know what really helped? I changed almost everything in my life! I changed the place of living, the people I live with, friends, comerades, job, and what I do for a living. In addition I fell in love, and faced a lot of difficulties connected with it. I bought my own room, and now going to move there. This all didn't happen at once. I left my parents in the summer 2010. Now it's almost summer 2013. During this time I have changed the place of living for three times, and job for four or five times. I broke a lot of stereotypes in my mind, and allowed me to stop living 'comme il faut' but to live that kind of life I want and enjoy myself - being who I am.

This is real joy to enjoy who you are no matter what other people think. Because if you try to be what other people want, you live not your life, and it actually becomes all for nothing then.
I was religious because it seemed to me to be good for a guy. But I didn't want to go to church.
I was trying to be good for other people. But I wanted to do some things the society of the village would not support.I was ready to be a teacher because my parents wanted. But I did want to make sites, optimize them for search engines, and advertize them.

I didn't take one thing into account - I LIVE THE LIFE FOR MYSELF!!!

Feb 2, 2010 - Progress

It is very good when you see your progress. I think that progress makes you much happier than achieving a good result. I mean, you may have won the game you wanted, or got the desirable position. But if you finish your movement after that, the life becomes not so interesting, doesn't it? You've got always have a goal, and you are to constantly work on your progress, and need to see it. If you do then you feel joy, if not then you don't.

It isn't an axiom but it is not a bad way to be happy!

Jan 29-31, 2010 - A Good Ending of the Month :D

I didn't write anything two previous days. But these days were the happiest in the month, I believe!

On Jan 29 I even had no time to make a note! Work, some home duties, singing, playing the piano, volleyball training, some sweets and ryazhenka for supper, and just a few minutes to look through the mailing before sleep. I like the rhythm!

It was a funny story on the day. After I had worn my tracksuit in the utility room of my classroom before the training, I closed the door with the padlock. And just having done it I realized that the key was left in the utility room... My coat, and mobile phone were left there as well. Thank my father and my student Sveta who let me call him I opened the door without breaking the padlock or the door :) That situation was a good lesson to me: even if you are happy and enjoy everything in the world, you still need to think over what you are doing ;)

The training was also good and happy. Though first it was boring to play, but then all the sluggishness disappeared and turned... well... to craziness! Sometimes we just fumbled, but the other times we were shouting, and yelling, and trying not to lose the ball! There's one thing that I like in our team best. After we are divided into 2 teams, we become the teams. We play together, we are happy for our victories. But we are all cheerful if we (or some of us) have progress in playing, even if the victory is not ours.

Yesterday was a day of working on my dissertation. I didn't do much in it. But I keep on working, and that's not bad! Some months before have passed without good progress in the research.

Also, yesterday I found the notes of the musical The Phantom of the Opera. So, I'm going to play one of the parts on the next Tuesday. I'm happy!

What about today?

I'm having a rest, and listening to music. Soon, I'm going to read a book that a friend of mine presented me this Christmas. I want to finally finish it.

And now, in the end, I wish the February would bring us joy every day (read: we would like to have joy every day and do something for that)!

Jan 25, 2010 - Do Complain???

What mysterious things sometimes happen to me! After I have named the problem it becomes solved very fast.

I'd like to call it as a psychological phenomenon (see: not complaining but naming the problem). But today it was so funny to face such a case connected with rather material things. Yesterday, our water supply system froze. I mean, not in the town but only at us. Today, I said about it talking with teachers at work, and to Lidia from Poland. Very soon after that my father tried to disconnect a tap at the basement and couldn't do it. He decided to heat it, and having done this, he improved the whole water supply system!

Right! The ice stopper was right in the tap and nearby.

It's so good! Because otherwise, if the problem would be somewhere underground, we could do something only in a couple of months.